It's only a mind getaway

I would do it. I’m not scared. Hell, I am NOT scared of the physical pain it’ll bring me. The hell with the pain if youve already grown so use to it. But when I think about my family thinking they’re a failure, that they could’ve done better or thinking they could’ve done more, and when I think of them considering it right after me. When I think of my parents having to choose between cremation and burial. When I think about my whole family having sleepless nights just weeping and tossing and turning around in bed questioning God why. That breaks my heart to pieces. That’s why I think suicide is such a selfish way to opt out. I’m too grateful for my family because they’re giving me that purpose. That drive. At times I still wish I had a debut but I don’t regret choosing a trip with my family instead. I would choose them over a one night debut anyday. That trip brought my family so much closer together. I am nothing but thankful and blessed.